How to let go of this life’s endless disappointments

Journal for the day of 2022-03-04:

Took the day off,  got little done

The following I believe to be a teaching from my inner guru:

Deep runs the desire to control and manipulate this world to our liking.   Albeit the compulsion to take the reins and try yet again to assert the ego’s desire on this world,  the end result is always the same,  a dissatisfying feeling of falling short of the expected goal followed by a resurgent obsession to do better next time.  While this obsession with egoic doing brings temporary gratification to the human form,  there is debt to pay in the imbalance caused in the environment that supports the existence of the form.  Rarely do these actions take into consideration the effect they have on the world around us and the pain and suffering incurred by others as well as the other life that surrounds us. Even the underlying methods employed to allow the reading of this message have given cause to some injury.

Know this, accept it as true in your heart,  I have no quarrel with the doings of this world as I have no stake in them.  They are not driven or motivated by my desire to see changes manifest,  nor am I troubled by the consequences you will face here for they are not real.  My only desire for you is that you will accept forgiveness and realize that I hold no ill will towards you or any of your brothers and sisters regardless of the degree of judgment your ego places on them.   I wish us only to be together at peace and accept the effects of our journey of separation for what it is,  an exercise in insanity that should have always been met with laughter and dismissal.

Be your true nature,  a loving being that can embrace all of existence for what it is now and what it will be regardless of the whims of your thinking mind. At home in peace you know this to be true as I have always accepted your desire to understand the truth of our being.   It is our nature to question this miracle and I would not deny you that.   Know only that some of our quests into understanding will result in lessons as they have unfolded in this world;  an experience involving a less than loving result.   Breathe and know that I am not discouraged by you or the effects you have experienced from this thinking.   You are loved in all your forms here as you are in the realized peace you share with me.