What happens when I attack others?

When we respond with attack, we perpetuate a system that is doomed to create suffering and dissatisfaction.  From this, there is nothing worthwhile that maintains its value for the possessor.  The fleeting rush of victory soon fades and our proceeds remain closely guarded while we constantly prepare a defense for the onslaught we imagine will come.  We cannot truly find peace and enjoyment that would make these pursuits beneficial, we reserve this only for another day.   We find ourselves, huddled with our bounty, worried of how it may be seized,  while our minds and bodies fall ill from our fears of the very world that provided the now tarnished object of our desires.  The end is always the same, we survive for a time in a world of “shoot first and ask questions later”,  “kill or be killed”, and “he who dies with the most toys wins”.  The vast majority of our moments are wasted in worry and dread as we grow old, become sick, and leave this place losing everything and everyone we loved in the few unwasted moments we allowed ourselves to enjoy.

There is another way, by letting go of our desires, focusing our awareness on acceptance of the world as it is in this moment, and expressing love and forgiveness through positive action we can escape the endless cycle of attack and realize true liberation.  Although the yearnings of our will may go unfilled, we can learn to see them for what they truly are, a prison that binds us with fear and distrust of our brothers and sisters.  From the vantage point of desirelessness, love, and compassion we can see the struggle as it unfolds for others and learn to gently help them realize the truth about the source of their discomfort.  Do not fall victim to the longing to punish those who seek glory in attack.  In time, all of these lessons lead the observer to their own truth.   Who knows what treachery occurs inside the chrysalis before the butterfly is born.

How to overcome my fear of risk

A concern I expressed:

I haven’t written a journal in a while.   I am concerned with the way things are coming out.  Do I present it as my teacher’s voice or my own?   I am not sure whether I think I am crazy or trying to be a charlatan and rehashing things I’ve learned or heard in some way claiming there is some ethereal supernatural element to it. Should I go back and rewrite it in a more authentic sounding voice.   “Authentic Sounding” that should be a tell whenever those two words are together.   I find it hard to stay motivated on any of this stuff.

The following I believe to be a teaching from my inner guru:

Don’t be concerned about the potential future criticisms of others.  Negative thoughts about future attacks are, of course, completely delusional.  The only valid argument the ego could possibly muster in this case is defensive preparation.   Is this the world you want to live in?  One where you must defend every action or every word spoken or written against an imaginary adversary? This is optimizing for inaction. Perhaps you might try to trust;  to have the courage to be vulnerable to attacks.  This might prove to be a more interesting outcome.   Remember that I am always with you.   Even if you are reviled and humiliated by everyone in this world,  my love for you is constant and unchanging.   What are you afraid of?