A concern I expressed:
I haven’t written a journal in a while. I am concerned with the way things are coming out. Do I present it as my teacher’s voice or my own? I am not sure whether I think I am crazy or trying to be a charlatan and rehashing things I’ve learned or heard in some way claiming there is some ethereal supernatural element to it. Should I go back and rewrite it in a more authentic sounding voice. “Authentic Sounding” that should be a tell whenever those two words are together. I find it hard to stay motivated on any of this stuff.
The following I believe to be a teaching from my inner guru:
Don’t be concerned about the potential future criticisms of others. Negative thoughts about future attacks are, of course, completely delusional. The only valid argument the ego could possibly muster in this case is defensive preparation. Is this the world you want to live in? One where you must defend every action or every word spoken or written against an imaginary adversary? This is optimizing for inaction. Perhaps you might try to trust; to have the courage to be vulnerable to attacks. This might prove to be a more interesting outcome. Remember that I am always with you. Even if you are reviled and humiliated by everyone in this world, my love for you is constant and unchanging. What are you afraid of?
Zen Momentum 